I'm back. I was in the hospital.

[quirky]

I'm going to be completely honest. I tried to kill myself. I don't know WHAT I was thinking. There is no history of this in my family...and I've been in the hospital getting ECT's. That's shock treatment. I feel different. I'm thinking of moving to California. I don't quite know how to proceed with my life. And I kind of have a who gives a #@#$ attitude. I got hit with a really profound depression and hella bad nightmares. I mean, I could not SLEEP or I would wake up screaming. I have no idea where it came from. So....now I need to decide what to do with my life. I'm going to my cousin's near Chicago for a little while. He's looking forward to having someone there who can cook and I've got a WHOLE lot of thinking to do.

I missed you guys, though. And I'm better. I'm just different. I have a month's supply of prozac.

[fluffy]

i was so worried.......the night before you dissappeared we spoke...do you remember?..........i had a strange feeling you were about to self harm so i told you to contact the Dr asap................

i'm sooooo relieved you didn't succeed.......phew.....you really had me there!!!
and Lorraine has been dead worried too......we all chatted earlier that night, and she thought you sounded fragile too...........

but you're back !!!!..yippee!!!................we missed you Quirks!!!

nicky

[Filomena]

First of all, I'm glad your plan failed.

Secondly, we all profoundly missed you, as you can see from all the discussion we had about you.

I wish I could head on out, to wherever you are, and take you out somewhere where you can forget all about your problems. You need to talk to someone, to help you through this.

Depression hits us all, at some point in our lives. So you're not alone.

It's good that you're going to spend some time away from home. Take this time to plan what you need to do in your life. Sounds like a drastic change is in order.

God bless.
Fil

[Filomena]

Sometimes Quirky, just when we think there's no hope, something incredible happens.

I don't know if you heard about this, but yesterday in Toronto, a plane crashed as it tried to land in the airport. When I first heard this, I was terrified. Not only was this too close to home, but I was expecting everybody on board to have perished.

But guess what? All 309 people on the plane survived the crash. Not one single fatality, and the plane didn't explode into a fiery explosion until everyone was safely off the plane.

This doesn't happen all the time. In fact, I don't remember this ever happening. But just when you think, shit! Life sucks and then you die!
(my favourite expression sometimes)......something like this happens.

Miracles do happen. God is listening and he'll help you if you ask him too.

[thecablegal]

QUIRKY! OMG, I'm so glad that you didn't succeed!

I understand how it feels to suddenly try to kill yourself, and I really feel for you. You just need to clear your head!

I hope that you are ok hun!

Jenna xx

[lammy]

Quirky that is sad and I am glad you are okay..I know what being drepressed is all about-

You'll find that live sucks sometimes but we were given a chance to experience it no matter how hard it is. God has a plan for all of us-

I hope you feel better now-I did miss you-

Don't think about the things you don't have, think about the things you do have and remember there are others worse of than you-this always keeps me sane.

Take care of yourself-okay.

[quirky]

Right now I am just in flux. So I don't know what the next step for me is. I've always dreamed of traveling Route 66 from Illinois to California, so I think that's what I'm going to do.

[cotton]

Woo Hoo you are back! DON'T DO THAT TO US AGAIN YOU HEAR ME??? Everybody was worried. I saw you on MSN IM the other day but you logged out just as I sent you a message. WELCOME BACK!

[searching_for_sunshine]

quirky,
i'm so glad you're ok. it really has not been the same here since you have been away.

you have been given a wonderful second chance i have a feeling that you will do great things.

sunshine

[mav]

Quirky - I feel so sad and helpless. I hope you don't have any adverse effects from the Tyelenol. It's the depression. I wish I had a miracle cure for it. This bunch of chemicals that plays with the mind. Your confusion also stems from it. Could you try to find out the cause of your depression? Try things with the diet, like, does low-salt help? I don't know why I feel diet plays a role in depression.

Don't do anything that your heart doesn't want to. Take it easy. "Nothing matters". Do only what you can and leave the rest to God.
-

[Conor]

just to show you how much we care http://www.jimcarreyonline.com/forum/vi ... php?t=3788

[Janel]

I thought your grandma might be in poor health--didn't realize it was you, darling. I am so glad you are back--you were sorely missed. Make a plan you can get excited about....your folks would never begrudge you excitement, hope and adventure because they were unable to enjoy it with you. Travel that highway and have a blast! SOOOO glad you are feeling better........

[xmassmurdere]

have a great time traveling the highway. you were really missed

[Lana]

thank god ur ok Quirky. honstly i've tried to kill myself manytimes, with stop breathing,........ but i kinda stop doing that after getting over depression with the help of the gr8est man alive (Jim Carrey) and my 2 best friends.
hope u don't try to do this again Quirky and i hope u'll get over it.

[jimliker]

welcome back Quirky. Plz dont try to commit suicide. Life is precious gift given by God plz dont end it like that....I hope change of enviornment will help u cope up with ur depression. Just keep the faith. God will always help u...GOD BLESS U.